simply me

2005-07-01T03:29:00.000-07:00

bloggerial restructure

guys, i'm moving back to easyjournal after much deliberation. - http://jloe.easyjournal.com
see ya there

apologies for any inconveniences caused.

simply,
jloe

2005-06-10T04:46:00.000-07:00

Under Rug Swept

Narcissus? Egotist? Self-centered? See my personality and judge it!

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller
You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.
You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #3 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian
You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!
You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #5 Match: INFJ

The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

What's" Your Personality Type?

Redemption

2005-06-07T08:02:00.000-07:00

Redemption

Hi, it's really been long since I've updated my blog. Really sorry for the extremely prolonged wait for this entry. Life these past few months is far more than a rocky roller coaster ride. Fortunately, I'm glad to say I've finally found the sense of equilibrium in my life. Today, I'll probably be telling you some of the pinnacle points of this school term.

This term I ran for Vice-president in Current Affairs on the second last week. Upon reflection, I thought I made a complete fool of myself and lost all the dignity I had in promoting myself shamelessly. Haha... Somehow, I don't seem to care about being classy anymore. I still don't know about the results and I don't really expect much either.

There was also Be Yourself Day, which was boring like hell and the irony was we couldn't even be ourselves.

I don't really want to dwell on this term because I had a very rough time.

However, my holidays seem to start with a BANG!
On the first day of the holidays, project eureka organized a nature trail, which sounds like a complete turn-off to me, that turned out surprisingly to be very fun. Lame jokes and stories were told along the way as we walked more than 8 km in about three hours. Nearing the end, I couldn't even talk; I had to focus all my energy on walking. Ha...
The experience was absolutely wonderful. I achieved something I thought I would never be able to. Perseverance was definitely an important lesson I learnt. Kudos to Project Eureka!
-thanks Annie for cheering me on during the trail.

On Monday, I visited Chern Fern in Hospital with my P& gang members Han Ying and Ling Xuan! Finally seeing them made me realized how much I missed them. We've not seen each other for the whole term already, and with Ee Sin leaving, I think just meeting up was a big consolation. Chern Fern is suffering from a sort-of Self-Immuniy Attack Disease which lowered her platelet count to 4! (normal count 190 plus) We chatted for about three hours and then I had to leave to meet GABRIEL!!!
I've also not seen him for a really long time. We were meeting to watch the fantastic movie Star Wars Episode 3 and I also had to pass him his belated birthday present. The movie was really nice. After that, I passed him the present and we separated ways and headed home. For the past weeks, Belinda and I have been hinting him on the present and he kept thinking it was an eraser from our school bookshop. (I'm not so cheapskate alright... ha...) The present was actually a bag of stationary worth $20 plus ok... ha. ( he called later to complain ha...)
Seeing them made me feel really nostalgic. Gone are the days when there were laughter and joy. But I'm quite glad to say at least I cherished the times I had with P7 and Gabriel well. Wish them all the best!

From Wednesday to Friday, it was Delta experience for the Class leaders. Since I was a class leader, it was sort of an obligation to attend the camp. Honestly, I resented the thought of the camp. I never liked camps - all the rules just make me feel like I'm a prisoner. And food sucks. However, the experience miraculously has since changed my perception.
I was in ETA - comprising of members Debbie, Apek (pronounced Ah pek, funny right?), Soke Yee, Isadora (it actually means Goddess of Fertility), Michele, Kelvin and Zhi Cong. They are a very nice bunch of people and we bonded very well.
On the first day, we played typical orientation games and by the second game, we were already able to work together as a team. We finished a task in 12 minutes when the allocated time was 30 minutes. Excellent right! Ha...
The most special thing was we arranged to meet up at 3 am to tell ghost stories!!! And we really did! I tell you ah... my heart was pouncing so hard when we were sneaking out. As you can see, I'm an obedient boy who seldom breaks rules, so doing something so extraordinary is not my usual practice. (now u understand how I feel) We shared about 20 plus really freaky stories ( pontianak, ghost on the fence... AH!!!) until we all had goosebumps. Then we stargazed with valuable information provided by the astro-enthu Soke Yee who told us about the galaxies and etc. (stars are not five-sided figures do u know?) It was a beautiful night with a tinge of horror.

On the second day, all campers were finally punished severely for our constant tardiness. That caused us about 9 rounds around the track plus all the boring warm-ups and cool-downs.
After breakfast, we went for a SL experience at Lion's Befriender - a centre for elderly. I learnt a tremendous lot from the facilitator, Miss Siti. She actually joined the social service sector due to her grandfather that she was very close to. Her grandfather had passed away and she felt the need to help people while she still could. She was awe-inspiring and no doubt an excellent facilitator.
On the same day, we saw a group of old women in the dance session and we joined in with them! We learnt the simple Cha-Cha dance that we kept dancing to it even in school. I realized that dancing really isn't my forte and I look stupid while dancing.
On that night, we arranged to meet again - same time, same place, same channel (our lingo). This time, I was really exhausted and slept for most of the time. Ha...

The third day was quite normal. Debriefs and debriefs... then BREAK CAMP. Although I loved the Delta experience, I missed my bed even more. Ha... But I'm very happy that I got to know such interesting people. We all had very distinctive personalities but we were able to blend together very well. I wouldn't trade anything for it.
Other than the camp food - it still sucks. Ha...

I'm praying that my holidays will get more interesting. And my 17th birthday is approaching(june 14)! ha... wonder how it will feel like being sweet seventeen... ha. tell u my birthday tots next entry. Ok, I've gotta end here. Thanks for reading. Enjoy your holidays too!!!

Simply,
Joel

PS: thanks ETA ( for the wonderful time), Ivan(for yr concern!really appreciate it. miss seeing u too!) and Chern Fern- get well soon-Cat welfare in December ah!

long long road

2005-04-01T16:14:00.000-08:00

Long, Long Road

For the past week, it has been physically strenuous for me and i find myself falling asleep unconsciously after i return from school. Maybe the lessons are just to mundane and arid - like a bad lullaby sending me to dreamland. In addition, i got to meet with my new class - we are still in the infancy stage of bonding together and i truly hope everything will work out fine. Elizabeth, Krystelle and I kept saying we miss 16 alot and it's really true - the chemistry we had was undeniably great. But nothing last forever, i'm make do with what i have and attempt to change the state we are in now.

I"ll show you the pictures of my new class if there's one.

The weather nowadays is getting extremely oppressive, with alternate periods of hot sun and heavy rain. I even feel that my body is failing me. Hopefully, i get past the bad weather - as they as, you have to put up with the rain before you can see the rainbow!

Today i'll be meeting up with my PHS 4e classmates - i actually deliberated for a long time whether to go or not. I hope that the animosity that existed between some people(who don't get along with me well) will be eliminated for good through this meeting. I also want to cherish this given opportunity to see my friends again - i guess i probably won't have the chance to do so when their's and my actual timetables start.

After all, it had been part of my life, good or bad, I still have to face it. If it's the end, i want to end it on a good note, not an unfinished note.

Speaking of reminiscing about the past, i had a chat with one of my primary school friends a few nights back. We brought up the past and asked about some of classmates whereabouts now. I really like the 6D class in Townsville but i think the chance of getting together again is slimmer than SLIM 10. I feel so nostalgic just talking about it. It makes me sad to know that i did not maximise my time with my friends in the past.

I've self-reflected umpteen times and i think i've not played my part dutifully as a friend.

Am i a good friend? I don't think so. It's up to you to think upon the times you've spent with me and consider if i'm a good friend. Tell me if you wish to.

I'll end here... have a nice day ahead.

Simply,

joel

crazy crazy world

2005-03-20T01:58:00.000-08:00

Laptop Crazy

this is actually my first entry written on a laptop le.. hee. My uncle lent it to me so that i can try to use it. Previously, i would only get to try it when i go to alvin's house. Feel so good to be able to type at ease in my own room - this really shows the noise made my idiotic brother is really a disturbance.
So, wednesday and thursday was orientation and it was really refreshing to make even more new friends and i feel really excited that my dwelling contained people from my 3months class! Further more i was in my desired tribe, VESTA!!! Wednesday was an extremely long day, we had subject talk for the first FIVE (i didn't type wrongly) hours which sent to the the land of boredom once again and after that it was a dance session. Krystelle and i kept annoying each other and my dance partner was Jolene. It was really a fun experience. even though i'm doing it again.
Thurs was hell of a fun day. Fortunately, my dwelling contained people who were willing to cheer and get the fun going. Seemingly, all the cheers were a little vulgar with words like chio bu and shuai ke - basically a combination of dialects, languages and ah beng accents. hehe. We won four rounds of rotation games and drawed for two. An exceptionally outstanding performance!

NOw that i have fully settled down into Anderson, there is almost no chance to think about leaving - i love the people in anderson. Alright, i'll see ya again, wanna slack! hehe

simply,
jloe

imagine

2005-03-19T03:12:00.000-08:00

In six thousand years what would this mean......

if my life was as pure...

if i lived in my favourite london...

if my life was as captivating as it is...

if my life was as colourful...

if my life was as bright and sparkly...

if my life was as relaxing and had no worries...

would i be happier?

missing you

2005-03-16T21:02:00.000-08:00

Missing You

I can safely say for the past three days, the boredom curse cast on me had been lifted.

Tuesday was an extremely memorable day for me. Tuesday was a day i had been anticipating for a while - Vogaje concert by AJC's choir. But most importantly, another reunion between me and my friends (P7 and SiJia)! We met at 430 at city hall mrt and went around window-shopping and have an early KFC dinner. After that, we headed straight to Victoria concert hall where the concert was held.

The concert was rather engaging and certain songs sent shivers down my spine. One song that really moved me was "childhood" from the free willy soundtrack. Below was one verse that deeply touched me.

Before you judge me,

try hard to love me,

Look within your heart then ask,

Have you seen my Childhood?

After the concert, we went backstage to give the flowers that we had bought for Hannah and Yuk Lum to them. It was rather exciting and seeing their happy responses made my day end with a nice note.

Thereafter, we headed to the mrt station and on the way, we took several pictures. How i wished the time could have stopped and i could spend forever with my beloved friends. As they say, all goods things must come to an end...

On wednesday, i had interact club. I was extremely reluctant to go cause i had to play the role as a group leader and from my past experiences i have already concluded that i would never be a good one. Furthermore, i wasn't in the mood for cheers and lots and lots of games.

I was in charge of a group called CLEMETIA. My group members were laughing during the start of the cheers cause we had to use CLEMENT in the cheers as most cheers could only fit in 2-syllabus names. Fortunately, we changed it to CT to ease all the laughter.

In the first game, i was wrapped in newspaper so that i would look like a mummy and risked of being wet. It was very embarrassing but i managed to contain my pride and continue till the end of the game. Out of a total of five games, we won 3 games, lost one game and got second for the last game. Rather impressive considering i was the leader. Hehe...

At the end, we clinched the thrid prize (even though we thought we would be first)! I was very relieved my group members participated enthusiastically in all games and we worked cohesively as a team.

Thank you to all my group members and the interact club for enriching my life experiences.

When i thought i was going to spend the whole Thursday doing nothing, fortunately, my good friend Alvin eased my boredom by calling me suddenly. We walked around AMK central and i treated him to bubble tea, ice-cream and lotsa sarcasm. Ha. We talked about his future academic endeavours (and even his sisters'), our friends and almost everything friends would talk about.

I love chatting to him as he tends to make me feel very comfortable. I hope he can get into his desired course. Good luck!

I so hate the fact that holidays are ending! Don't even have time to rest. ha... enjoy the rest of your holidays ok? see ya....!

Simply,

jloe

Joy world

2005-03-14T15:33:00.000-08:00

Just changed my blog design, noticed it right? I feel it's quite nice and probably won't be changing in the near future.
Anyway, the holidays has just started and i still haven figured out what to do yet. I still have to wait till wednesday (23) before i know which school i'm posted to.
Yesterday i went out on my dwelling / tribe outing. I feel that on every gathering that i go to, i seem to be a curse - because the outing would not be as fun and only a few people would turn up.
We went to Marina bay to eat steamboat. There were certainly a small amount of entertainment - which i turned out to be the unfortunate one being ridiculed at. The fact that Ivan was gorging himself with lots of food seem to reflect my "small" diet. Yi Min and Xue Ting were there constantly complaining why i was so lazy to cook, why i keep drinking soup and why i eat so little. Kinda reminds me of those 38 sprouting doggerel on tv dramas - no offence anyway.

In some way. i felt kind of pressurized. I had to deal with the dilemma of keeping true to what i am or be the masculine man that is perceived by the girls. I still want to be the Sensitive New Age Guy (SNAG) - ha! The two complaining girls were explaining a new trend nowadays - that girls don't know how to cook and guys should cover that responsibility. Crap. Rubbish.

Back to the outing- we ate for like more than two hours and i was getting late so we went home. I seriously wanted some sleep cause i have a busy day today! Morning i have to attend interact meeting and in the night - CHOIR CONCERT! I'll be meeting my beloved and dearly missed PLATINUM 7! Hope it's fun, and hope the boredom curse will be lifted for today! Please.........

Simply,
jloe

Clarity

2005-03-04T08:34:00.000-08:00

After serious consideration and much much deliberation, I have placed National JC in the first place, followed by Anderson. I am so tired yesterday - I spent the whole day trying to apply for the schools through the JIS. Apparently, it was SO busy try like more than umpteen times. Even though I could get through the System, I was not wiling to give up - after all I had tried so many hours already. One of my friends called me too rebellious, but I think I am determined (not to let the internet system outdo me I mean. ha).

Today afternoon, I’ll be meeting my AJC class 16/05 for a class outing. Ironically, almost half the class couldn’t make it. We’ll be watching HITCH (I hope, if there’s no other changes.) and eating together.

For these two months, this class hasn’t been as picture perfect as I thought it would be in the beginning. But I still find the people in my class extremely easy-going and a thrill to be with. My clique in class – the notoriously-famous (like real) PLATINUM 7, and the newly formed ALLIANCE, will always be a bunch that loves to joke around and be the enthusiasm drive in the class. Sometimes I can’t stand what the others are doing, but I try to close an eye as I don’t want it to affect our friendship.

I guess I’ll always remember the class forever for bringing me back some form of class spirit I’ve not felt for so long since I entered upper secondary life, for reminding me that I could laugh and joke again, and lastly for making me whole again after I was torn into pieces by two years of distrust and anger. My life has been enriched and no matter what happens in the future, I will always be reminded of their kindness. Thank you guys!

Love you always,
Joel

Confused

2005-03-02T16:30:00.000-08:00

Ah...... i am so confused right now. This morning i went to crash NJC and i found it to be better than AJC a bit. But there were several issues surrounding my entry into NJC - like the ability to take Biology and to adapt to another totally new environment. The school is like so big compared to Anderson and i have to climb like SO many steps. Also when i was waiting outside the school with Belinda for her friends, all the people we saw entering NJC (i mean JC1s) were from top secondary schools like River Valley, Nanyang Girls, Chinese High and the list goes on. We really felt so inferior compared to them.

After that we also went to crash NYJC even though i didn't want to enter Ny at all. My parents doesn't have a good impression of that JC. Meet some of my ex-classmates there. Then went home. (pardon me... i'm quite tired.)

I'm so confused. I'm not completely satisfied with my current JC and i cannot go to a better one. I'm STUCK In the MIDDLE!!! Hope there'll be a way paved out for me soon enough. i'm really confused - feeling my head aching le.

Good luck to me ok...

Royal

2005-03-01T21:20:00.000-08:00

Today's my first entry in the new blog - so hope you like the new layout (tell me Kz) !

Yesterday was one of the days my heart pounded so hard. I thought it was the hardest so far. My O Levels results was gonna be released and all i could do was to wait for that "suddenly" so-slow time to pass. I thought i would be distracted by watching the 77th Academy Awards. But instead, i got even more nervous and envious. Seeing the derserving winners go up on stage to accept their awards made me think back on my self - am i gonna be as happy as them when i received my award? 3 1/2 words - i don't know. (ha)
So second by second,,, minute by minute, hour by hour passed and soon it was one pm. I left home for school for that critical moment in my life. On the way, i kept telling myself that whatever results that i get, i will accept it calmly. If it's good, i will be glad and satisfied with it. If it's not good, i'll receive it with grace and just go to a polytechnic. With such clarity in my mind, the pouncing pace of my heart slowed down.

Upon reaching the school, i could already see some of my friends in the canteen and went to look for them. Instead of a normal "hi" or a wave, they reached out their hands to congratulate me! At least what i thought was they were gonna to wish me best of luck. I was in awe, in shock and in complete "blurness". So i thought they must have found out something about my results. I walked calmly with Caren and hazel to the back of the hall where we saw the results of the top scorers. On the way, i kept chanting "calm, calm calm...." I was so relieved that i got 6A1s and 1A2 (the other was a B3)! I didn't get excited or anything because i told myself that i should not be too excited.

Many people congratulated soon after and i wished them good luck too. I thought the results i got were partially due to the kind blessings all my friends and family have given me. Next up, i was anxious for all my other good friends. I didn't want to say too much otherwise they would see me as being proud - they very sensitive (ha).

I don't want to bore you with all the details of yesterday. So in short, after the school results analysis, was the receiving the results and soon after, i went out with my friends ( Yong leng, Jian Sheng, Choon Kiat) to watch the "super lame but quite funny still" movie, I DO I DO.

After i went home, i kept thinking upon some of my other friends - how did they do? I am hoping they got good results. If you didn't, i just want to say that that is not the end of the world, it just the start of a new chapter. You can do it if you have the will - cause then there'll be a way. Keep in mind this: I'll always be there for you.
Most of my friends did considerably well - Yuk Lum (Go Girl!) Hannah (Smilez, hope we can stay in the same school ok!) chern Fern ( Wah... Top scholar in yr school le) and the others ( All the best Lo!!!)

I am very glad for the results i've gotten. I want to give thanks to my parents for providing me the best possible environment to study in, my friends (Fiona, Meisan, Choon Kiat, just to name a few) for their emotional support and my teachers (Mrs Agyang, Mr Sing, Mrs Teo, Miss Kang ...) for their dedication and guidance the one/two years. On that note, i end today's entry.

Simply,
Joel